Telling Jangkrik's letter:
Actually this is the type of cake that Platypus and Jangkrik used to make when they were together. They'd often made some deserts in the evening. Platypus would made different kinds of deserts. Sometimes He'd baked some chocolate chip cookies, pie, or strawberry shortcakes as the strawberry season was in.
But, Platypus had his magic works in most of them and Jangkrik would just helped a little but with mostly sitting around doing her works. He was such a sweetheart who made Jangkrik felt so much loved and cared about.
Strawberry shortcakes was one of Paltypus's favorites. For her now, Thinking to make strawberry shortcakes is like actually reminding her to him. Or rather because she remember him just lately and so prompts her to make strawberry shortcakes so that she can feel his present in illusion. she was not sure.
There are just so much beautiful things about Platypus that she cannot forget. But the point when she had to struggle for her life all alone just before and three months after they split up was too intense. It pushes all beautiful memories they both once ever had further away. Although she can tell very honestly and frankly that she still deeply in love with Platypus. But she knows that sometimes in life one have to make a decision. Although she also never know whether her decision was the right one but she was sure it helped, to the very least it helped her to continue her days. Because during that grey day, she was just so much afraid of being in the darkness for too long. So she thought that was the only way she could take to help herself....
And maybe stupid, because she never let Platypus knows how dying she was. She says, it was not the break up that made her dying, but the pressure of her intense intuition about something she felt was going wrong but she could never understood what it was about until she discovered that there was something wrong with their connection. And the dying that her body had to endure afterward. These were what she mostly want to skip whenever it comes to her mind. It still wets Her eyes whenever that vision of her dying crosses her mind. Nonetheless, not letting platypus know was also her choice, because She does not want to think that it was his mistake all along. And that there was just so much to tell and she had no left over energy she could use to say describe her pain . She thought that thing was ended and she wanted it to end once for all. She thought it was the best way to do, if not for her, then for him--one that she once cherished-- She says Platypus wants to figure out about his life. She believes he was right, and she has no reason to hold onto a man who wants to continue searching for what he wants in life. Like her, as she said, he also deserves to get happiness in the way he thinks he could gets one.
She was glad that she was able to tell him that she did not keep hatred for him, for what had happened between them. But one thing she has not been able to do. She has never been able to answer his simple question "how are you doing?" She does not tell why.
And every now and then, whenever she makes strawberry shortcake, it is like to remind herself to stay humble and patient. She said, the strawberry shortcake also could tell her, how far she has been healed.
She hopes some day she'd be able to answer his simple question without getting herself reminded to her rough time in an alien land.
In the end of her letter she said, "I don't know why do I tell you this, but mostly talk will help and heal... and I think I am healing everyday. The wound is healing slowly but I am glad that it continues getting better everyday...."
Thank you for reading it
Jangkrik
